It’s All Good

Transcript

This is how your life is already wonderful.

I was just thinking about how its all good.

I had this experience the other day actually several experiences that day. I have to explain the setup before I get to the punch line.

So something happened in the morning, I was about to sit down for my morning meditation and I started to have this experience where every time I sat down for my morning meditation and I started having this experience where every time I breathed in my nose I would experience a different scent. It’s interesting.

It reminds me of something that happens in Baba sadaasd autobiography a Play of Consciousness. What he describes sitting in meditation he begins to have all the olfactory sensations, different divine fragrances appearing to him each one more delightful than the last.

Even finer than the finest fragrances brought to him by his devotees. So I thought Ok that’s very interesting. It seemed to be something similar was happening to me the other day.

I sat down the other day and I focused on these scents and it was kind of fascinating because some of them were kind of musty or musky, smelled like a damp room that has leaks after a rain or something. Some kind of putrid. Some more sweet and interesting, smell of fruit or something like that or a fine wood. All were equally pleasant.

And each one unique and strangely familiar and yet unknown to me in this lifetime and as Im focusing on these glimpses, sensations and impressions of places and what its like to be in that place and I thought that was very interesting.

I thought this is a very auspicious beginning to the day. And then later, a few hours later I am in a diner. I got caught in the rain and my yoga class got cancelled. I am sitting in a diner and I look outside, its not a window but an open space. The door they have there, there are 2 young women about to fight and both of them looks to be about 20 years old.

She’s wearing this bright red jacket and the other woman is wearing a transit officer jacket. The woman in red is very angry and shouting at the transit officer. I think what is going on here, my natural reaction is to stand up and walk over to the woman in red “it’s ok, everything is cool, lets calm down and be relaxed about this.” Put my hands on her shoulders and pull her back a bit so she doesn’t swing on this other woman.

And then later I noticed, I can’t say for sure if my actions were entirely helpful but it seemed to calm down the situation a little bit.

I went back to eating my breakfast and then it occurred to me that I thought she was unhinged or something which is generally a valid interpretation of these sorts of events.

Later I noticed that the transit officer standing there, the colleague is in-between her and the angry woman. The transit officer is a bit smug like we’re going to take your license. And I thought that is very interesting this other side of the story. Our first impressions don’t tell us everything.

Who was the real aggressor in this situation is not entirely clear.

So then I had that opportunity to try to settle things down so from my perspective that was good.

What else happened? Ah yes I was having a conversation with someone and I told her Oh yes I am a coach, I do this on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. She started to say things I found pretty insulting like a lot of coaches take advantage of young women who are vulnerable and sexually abuse them.

I was like “whoa where is this coming from?” And she didn’t really apologize for saying this and I thought ok. I was quite offended and a little hurt and I thought “why am I hurt about this?”

I guess its not because I fear that I am a sexual abuser, I think I can rule out that accusation but clearly there was something about it that struck a chord.

I realized its some kind of imposter syndrome like I doubt myself when I am helping my clients and I think can I really help this person? I have never heard of this situation before and of course it happened frequently because every situation is different.

So I doubt, I am not sure if I can really help them or help myself. This happens to me often and I affirm to myself its ok to doubt my abilities. Its actually a little healthy to do it once in awhile because it keeps me on my toes being a little bit critical about my methods. Its probably actually good.

It doesn’t need to make me feel like I an impostor just someone who is staying on top of things so I reframed the situation in my mind.

That was interesting. I get offended when someone says something not so nice to me and I figured out that this has made something conscious in me that wasn’t previously and I can use this for my own development.

And then later I was out walking, walking home and I might have got caught in the rain again and I thought “so many things have happened today that can be good or bad depending on how you look at it with different perspectives depending on how you look at it or emotional journey too.”

And its all good. Its all good, all of it is good, all is divine and exactly as it is supposed to be and we can enjoy these experiences whatever emotional rollercoaster we go on. Whatever lingering doubt of stress.

There is something at the base of it that is pure and wonderful. Yes, its all good. So thank you for being aware of your environment and being aware of your emotional situation in reality because it’s likely that you will find when you are aware of it there is something sweet about it.